You and Me or Lack There Of
When I hear your voice I hear absense.
When I see your face I see transperancy.
When I think of you my mind is blank.
You dont belong in my life anymore and that is why you aren’t here.
Major Change
Written 3 weeks ago:
I’m starting to wonder if I’m going the right way with my education. Business was always the goal and I have always been the girl who “knew what she was doing” but I think I have held on to that facade for too long now. Now I’m lost without an understanding of what to do next. I have no clue. I know I want to get out of here. Start new somewhere else. I like change. I crave it. But there are so many people I have grown close to that I will miss. And you all know who you are. But I need this. I feel cramped and trapped into something that I wont want to do for the rest of my life.
Update:
…Thus I have decided that I want to be a pharmacist. I have always loved the idea of medicine and I have always excelled in science classes. I dont know how I didn’t see it sooner. It was right there in front of my face… taking 7 years worth of credits in the 4 years of high school should have made it obvious. In chemistry I was practically tutoring most of the class. I feel better now… Knowing that I still have an idea to cling onto. Hopefully this one pans out better because I dont know what else to try. They always say there are so many doors to open but the problem is knowing how to open each one. Off to the career counselor I go then!
